I don’t think anyone understands the full reason why I get sad. Like I’m leaving my whole fucking life behind in 2 months and I can’t do anything but act happy about it because if I get upset- then everyones upset. And I rather act happy so everyone acts happy with me so I believe I’m happy about it. And when I believe I’m happy and everyone else is happy then I do actually feel happy. Sadness shows on tumblr but isn’t that what tumblr is for? And yes I want a relationship but I’m not asking for one right now. I’m not desperate to go chase after the first guy that hits me up because, well, theres been guys that hmu but experience has taught me to differentiate a good guy from a bad one. Like when the good one comes and it flows BY ITSELF then I’m set. Okay I’m lonely but it’s natural. I’m sorry I’m not like everyone who masks their lonliness by fucking around. I can’t fuck around or flirt with someone like that. Me moving just makes it harder for me to meet someone. Yes I know I WILL meet someone eventually. I just hope it’s love and provides stability to my heart and not some dumbass relationship like the ones I’ve had in the past. Sorry that I want at least one thing to look forward to despite my move. And P.S. most of you single fuckers go to sleep lonely. Not everyone admits it. Don’t imply your freshly single pessimism on me.
Try to decipher me again bro.